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... Well, I already punched her a few times for it, and I don't blame anyone for being pissed off—but considering what's at stake, there's no point in putting that above what we have to do. I mean, unless they actually don't care about what happens to all of us.
It's not like we have to hug it out and be best friends with everyone.
[he had to play nice with his abuser for a hundred years. so, as far as he's concerned, no one has any excuse for not being able to handle it for a few days.]
It's not like we have to hug it out and be best friends with everyone.
[he had to play nice with his abuser for a hundred years. so, as far as he's concerned, no one has any excuse for not being able to handle it for a few days.]
[honestly, the matter with endorsi has rekindled some uncomfortable feelings—but in the end, they're nothing he hasn't lived with before, so he's learned to bear with it.]
... As soon as people started killing, it was always going to end up like this.
... As soon as people started killing, it was always going to end up like this.
[he tilts his head at that, surprised]
No.
[ . . . ]
I mean, it's either being here or being dead, you know? But at least if I'm here.... I can try to figure out how to get my life back... and -
[he seems to hesitate a little bit, taking another sip of his tea at that as he leans back against the counter and lets his gaze drift to the ceiling]
.... I keep thinking about it. If wishes aren't real - since Vira-san mentioned it. And... they have to be real because I won't accept if you don't get yours. That's just not something I'll even consider. And obviously I want mine too but...
[a little bit of a shrug]
I don't know. It might make people want to hit me but if I'm being honest... I think, even if I die tomorrow, then... this time I've gotten would be enough for me. I'd have an easier time accepting it than when I first got here.
No.
[ . . . ]
I mean, it's either being here or being dead, you know? But at least if I'm here.... I can try to figure out how to get my life back... and -
[he seems to hesitate a little bit, taking another sip of his tea at that as he leans back against the counter and lets his gaze drift to the ceiling]
.... I keep thinking about it. If wishes aren't real - since Vira-san mentioned it. And... they have to be real because I won't accept if you don't get yours. That's just not something I'll even consider. And obviously I want mine too but...
[a little bit of a shrug]
I don't know. It might make people want to hit me but if I'm being honest... I think, even if I die tomorrow, then... this time I've gotten would be enough for me. I'd have an easier time accepting it than when I first got here.
... Then I can say the same, you know? I accepted my death when it happened. I agreed to be here because it wasn't like I had anything left to lose.
Of course, I'll fight for my wish, but it's not the end of the world if I don't get it.
[he'd already lived far past when he should've died. not a lot of people would consider his death a tragedy.]
You not getting yours is what I won't accept.
Of course, I'll fight for my wish, but it's not the end of the world if I don't get it.
[he'd already lived far past when he should've died. not a lot of people would consider his death a tragedy.]
You not getting yours is what I won't accept.
It is the end of the world - [and even though he started this fight, there's something about it that makes mineo angry] - I won't let it happen. You not getting your wish -
[he shakes his head more vehemently at that]
No way. You have to live. I won't let this be the end for you.
[he shakes his head more vehemently at that]
No way. You have to live. I won't let this be the end for you.
[ . . . . he just huffs out a breath at that.]
.... maybe it doesn't make much sense.
But it's always easier for me to care about others instead of myself. I want to live. I'm not going to give up, and I have a lot of people who'd be pissed off at me if I actually did.
I just know that it's not hard to choose you over me either.
.... maybe it doesn't make much sense.
But it's always easier for me to care about others instead of myself. I want to live. I'm not going to give up, and I have a lot of people who'd be pissed off at me if I actually did.
I just know that it's not hard to choose you over me either.
I don't want you to choose me over you!
[though even as he says it, he knows that won't change mineo's mind.
he wants to live. to protect lucy and lessa; to see if it's possible for him to obtain happiness, for once.
but he's not selfless like mineo. he can accept his end here, because the truth is he's tired; has been for far past when he first realized it. the longer he's in this place, the more aware he becomes of it.
and because, ultimately—
he's content with having known the people he has, in the last moments of his life.]
[though even as he says it, he knows that won't change mineo's mind.
he wants to live. to protect lucy and lessa; to see if it's possible for him to obtain happiness, for once.
but he's not selfless like mineo. he can accept his end here, because the truth is he's tired; has been for far past when he first realized it. the longer he's in this place, the more aware he becomes of it.
and because, ultimately—
he's content with having known the people he has, in the last moments of his life.]
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