[jan really hit a milestone here and i think that's something that's worth being proud of.
it's just -
mineo isn't thinking about things in complex terms. he is simple-minded, and he is sincere. what he knows is that even though they can't date - that doesn't mean that he wants a moment to pass without someone important to him having any doubts about whether or not he cares about their feelings. and maybe he's still failing that, but.
but he wants to try.
his heart hammers against his chest, and he thinks that it's such - a crazy, exhilarating feeling to kiss someone who wants to kiss him back. to want and to be wanted. he's not bold enough to press for more, even if there's some odd aching feeling that's been persistent throughout the week that suggest that oh having just a bit more wouldn't be bad, would it.
but he resists. if just barely. he pulls back from the kiss and opens his eyes and - well, it's like he remembers to be embarrassed.]
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it's just -
mineo isn't thinking about things in complex terms. he is simple-minded, and he is sincere. what he knows is that even though they can't date - that doesn't mean that he wants a moment to pass without someone important to him having any doubts about whether or not he cares about their feelings. and maybe he's still failing that, but.
but he wants to try.
his heart hammers against his chest, and he thinks that it's such - a crazy, exhilarating feeling to kiss someone who wants to kiss him back. to want and to be wanted. he's not bold enough to press for more, even if there's some odd aching feeling that's been persistent throughout the week that suggest that oh having just a bit more wouldn't be bad, would it.
but he resists. if just barely. he pulls back from the kiss and opens his eyes and - well, it's like he remembers to be embarrassed.]
... um. Was - that okay?