[he follows him, glad that he has an excuse not to look at mineo as he talks.]

When the war came to an end, and Lord Lessa saved me and left most of the others to die, I didn't know why, at first. Especially since he almost executed me later anyway, when he thought I was about to kill some humans.

[...]

It took a while before I got why. [why lessa saved him, that is.] With Ares gone and our era at an end, there was no point in killing anymore. I managed to understand that and move on, and not everyone did or would've.

[also the part where becoming a deman had never really been white's choice! but anyway

mineo wasn't exactly right when he said he felt like white didn't enjoy killing. because he did, when it made him feel strong; better than a piece of trash underneath people's feet.

but he wasn't necessarily wrong, either.

which is to say, this is white unfortunately having to admit that maybe he's not a (completely) shitty person, hence why he sounds kind of awkward while saying all this.]

... If that helps at all. I dunno if that made sense.