[ . . . he huffs a little bit at that.]

That still surprises you, huh....

[a little bit of amusement from mineo - but mostly guilt.]

... I should've made it clearer sooner. Sorry. You're important to me. [and he gives a smile, easy and honest] You really are one of the best friends I've ever had, White.

I don't like thinking about saying goodbye to you at all.