[white can't hide what breaks through his guard when mineo doesn't walk away—he's stunned, and then relieved.
because mineo stayed, and for all that white technically gave permission—]
... I'll get over it. That wasn't even in, what, the top five worst things you could've done...?
[—leaving, on the other hand, would've been. because there are few things white despairs over like being abandoned, and yet there is nothing that he expects more from others.
he's frustrated and he's hurt. but more than anything, he doesn't know how to deal with the possibility of mineo shutting him out, of having to watch mineo fall apart and feel like he's not able to help. (more selfishly, he fears that once mineo runs out of energy to care, he'll finally wake up and realize white was never worth his time.)
none of that is anything he knows how to voice, though, or if he even should. awkwardness bubbles up inside of him, until he's left to blurt out,]
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because mineo stayed, and for all that white technically gave permission—]
... I'll get over it. That wasn't even in, what, the top five worst things you could've done...?
[—leaving, on the other hand, would've been. because there are few things white despairs over like being abandoned, and yet there is nothing that he expects more from others.
he's frustrated and he's hurt. but more than anything, he doesn't know how to deal with the possibility of mineo shutting him out, of having to watch mineo fall apart and feel like he's not able to help. (more selfishly, he fears that once mineo runs out of energy to care, he'll finally wake up and realize white was never worth his time.)
none of that is anything he knows how to voice, though, or if he even should. awkwardness bubbles up inside of him, until he's left to blurt out,]
I don't want you to leave.