[he bites back a rude 'are you sure?' because he knows that it's his own defensiveness and irritation. he probably takes a second, sipping on his drink before he can say anything.]
.... I don't think I'm actually an idiot. I think that I have to keep things separate so I don't get stuck, or overwhelmed - but even if everyone else thinks I'm a moron, I don't.
I got used twice - back to back, even. I said 'sorry, I didn't mean to distract anybody' and then immediately did it again. Like I didn't learn anything.
I mean... I'm basically the champion of never learning from my mistakes! [he takes a chip, though he doesn't eat it just yet.] If it happens too soon after the other, you got no time to process, but if they're spaced out, you've already half-forgotten.
'Cause you then keep talking about how much I contribute—so why can't I do the same for you?
[he shrugs.]
Look, sure, you were a distraction. But given everything that happened in the last half hour, I doubt we were gonna come up with anything new, so your curses probably didn't make that much of a difference in the long run.
I'm pretty sure no one walked out of that thinking, "fuck that Mineo, he's more detrimental than helpful". And if anyone did, I'll beat 'em up. But seriously, if anything, we wasted more time with stuff like not 'fessing up to powers.
he's quiet after that, like he's really letting it sink in. the logic's there, which probably gets through to him more than anything else - but it's coupled with white's defensiveness on his behalf which manages to slam it the rest of the way through.
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I won't look a gift horse in the mouth.
I just don't want to get reliant on it.
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.... it's cramped, to try to do any of that in nine hours.
[but there's still something unsatisfied in his tone anyway]
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.... yeah.
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Okay, what self-loathing thing are you thinking right now.
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.... it's nothing.
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... Come on, Mineo. I'm not gonna judge.
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.... I don't think I'm actually an idiot. I think that I have to keep things separate so I don't get stuck, or overwhelmed - but even if everyone else thinks I'm a moron, I don't.
[ . . . ]
But I felt like such a fucking fool today.
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'Cause of the curse, or...?
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[and he scowls]
I got used twice - back to back, even. I said 'sorry, I didn't mean to distract anybody' and then immediately did it again. Like I didn't learn anything.
What the hell is wrong with me?
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... You're human. That's what's wrong with you.
I mean... I'm basically the champion of never learning from my mistakes! [he takes a chip, though he doesn't eat it just yet.] If it happens too soon after the other, you got no time to process, but if they're spaced out, you've already half-forgotten.
It just kinda sucks either way.
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That can't be all there is.
[he frowns]
It happened to me because they knew about my faults and shortcomings, and they exploited them. I'm tired of being the weakest link.
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You're not the weakest link. You said it yourself, right? You're not an idiot. You contribute more to investigations than the rest of us, honestly.
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..... what's the point if I'm so easy to take out.... and throw everyone else off while I'm at it?
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I. Nearly. Ate. Poisoned. Evidence.
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[he shrugs.]
Look, sure, you were a distraction. But given everything that happened in the last half hour, I doubt we were gonna come up with anything new, so your curses probably didn't make that much of a difference in the long run.
I'm pretty sure no one walked out of that thinking, "fuck that Mineo, he's more detrimental than helpful". And if anyone did, I'll beat 'em up. But seriously, if anything, we wasted more time with stuff like not 'fessing up to powers.
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he's quiet after that, like he's really letting it sink in. the logic's there, which probably gets through to him more than anything else - but it's coupled with white's defensiveness on his behalf which manages to slam it the rest of the way through.
after a long beat, he just huffs faintly]
... okay.
I get it.
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... Good, 'cause I wasn't gonna repeat that.
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Really? Not even if I asked nicely?
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all he can do is aggressively eat more chips without looking at mineo]