But it's always easier for me to care about others instead of myself. I want to live. I'm not going to give up, and I have a lot of people who'd be pissed off at me if I actually did.
I just know that it's not hard to choose you over me either.
[though even as he says it, he knows that won't change mineo's mind.
he wants to live. to protect lucy and lessa; to see if it's possible for him to obtain happiness, for once.
but he's not selfless like mineo. he can accept his end here, because the truth is he's tired; has been for far past when he first realized it. the longer he's in this place, the more aware he becomes of it.
and because, ultimately—
he's content with having known the people he has, in the last moments of his life.]
That's what everyone says but I thought this one made sense....
[ . . . . he sighs.]
I'm not an officer anymore - but it's pretty much a given that I used to be in danger everyday. I was alright with that, so long as I knew that I was helping people. The only reason I was so afraid of dying was because I thought my life really amounted to nothing.
Being here... made me feel like that's not true anymore.
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You can say that about me but not yourself?
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.... maybe it doesn't make much sense.
But it's always easier for me to care about others instead of myself. I want to live. I'm not going to give up, and I have a lot of people who'd be pissed off at me if I actually did.
I just know that it's not hard to choose you over me either.
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[though even as he says it, he knows that won't change mineo's mind.
he wants to live. to protect lucy and lessa; to see if it's possible for him to obtain happiness, for once.
but he's not selfless like mineo. he can accept his end here, because the truth is he's tired; has been for far past when he first realized it. the longer he's in this place, the more aware he becomes of it.
and because, ultimately—
he's content with having known the people he has, in the last moments of his life.]
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[and he just huffs before reaching out with his hand to tap his knuckles against white's shoulder]
And it won't come down to a choice, so it doesn't matter! We'll all get our wishes.
I just didn't want to lie to you about how I was feeling.
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Asshole. You're a moron, you know that?
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[ . . . . he sighs.]
I'm not an officer anymore - but it's pretty much a given that I used to be in danger everyday. I was alright with that, so long as I knew that I was helping people. The only reason I was so afraid of dying was because I thought my life really amounted to nothing.
Being here... made me feel like that's not true anymore.
That's all it is.
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[if mineo still thinks his life amounted to nothing, then they have all failed him, really.
he takes a sip from his drink, before muttering—]
Still a hypocrite, though.
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[and he'll just accept the insult with a little bit of a sad smile before bumping his shoulders against white's]
And hey, at least I got to meet you.
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... Well. Same here, I guess.
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WOW
HE LOOKS REALLY SURPRISED]
Really?!
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[BUT HE DOES honestly look really happy it's terrile]
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anyway. he looks away.]
Geez, you don't need to get all weird about it...!
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But I like when you're nice to me...
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[continues looking away and gulps down his drink]
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Well, it was nice while it lasted....
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[ :/ ]
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quietly sips his tea and does not respond]
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I'm just kidding...
[and unfortunately he is]
I'd have to be blind for real to not know how much you look out for me. I just wanted to tease you a little.
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looks away and aggressively sips his drink because never mind he liked it better when mineo wasn't being sincere]
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Please don't leave me in silence after I tried to say a cool thing, it's very nervewracking.
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