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[complimenting him at all tends to absolutely destroy him but he's also generally not used to being called attractive. it's fine. he just flusters worse]
F-Fine....!
[no he's not his heart is racing even though there are SO MANY REASONS why he should be better about this]
F-Fine....!
[no he's not his heart is racing even though there are SO MANY REASONS why he should be better about this]
[he just reaches out to poke mineo's forehead.]
I don't actually want to know about your sex life, to be honest. No offence. [a pause, as he tries to word this in a way he's allowed to—] But your extreme reactions at the subject fill me with joy?
[read: it's funny.]
I don't actually want to know about your sex life, to be honest. No offence. [a pause, as he tries to word this in a way he's allowed to—] But your extreme reactions at the subject fill me with joy?
[read: it's funny.]
[ . . . . he pulls white to his feet and just laughs a little bit of the question.]
... I don't know. But I've also never had to think about whether I'm even worthy to judge other people. I don't think I am.
[he doesn't think he has any room to talk, when he himself has been judged as evil and some days he can't shake the idea that he might be.]
I know that I need to move forward, and I can't really be stuck anywhere... but I think about it a lot.
... I don't know. But I've also never had to think about whether I'm even worthy to judge other people. I don't think I am.
[he doesn't think he has any room to talk, when he himself has been judged as evil and some days he can't shake the idea that he might be.]
I know that I need to move forward, and I can't really be stuck anywhere... but I think about it a lot.
[he follows him, glad that he has an excuse not to look at mineo as he talks.]
When the war came to an end, and Lord Lessa saved me and left most of the others to die, I didn't know why, at first. Especially since he almost executed me later anyway, when he thought I was about to kill some humans.
[...]
It took a while before I got why. [why lessa saved him, that is.] With Ares gone and our era at an end, there was no point in killing anymore. I managed to understand that and move on, and not everyone did or would've.
[also the part where becoming a deman had never really been white's choice! but anyway
mineo wasn't exactly right when he said he felt like white didn't enjoy killing. because he did, when it made him feel strong; better than a piece of trash underneath people's feet.
but he wasn't necessarily wrong, either.
which is to say, this is white unfortunately having to admit that maybe he's not a (completely) shitty person, hence why he sounds kind of awkward while saying all this.]
... If that helps at all. I dunno if that made sense.
When the war came to an end, and Lord Lessa saved me and left most of the others to die, I didn't know why, at first. Especially since he almost executed me later anyway, when he thought I was about to kill some humans.
[...]
It took a while before I got why. [why lessa saved him, that is.] With Ares gone and our era at an end, there was no point in killing anymore. I managed to understand that and move on, and not everyone did or would've.
[also the part where becoming a deman had never really been white's choice! but anyway
mineo wasn't exactly right when he said he felt like white didn't enjoy killing. because he did, when it made him feel strong; better than a piece of trash underneath people's feet.
but he wasn't necessarily wrong, either.
which is to say, this is white unfortunately having to admit that maybe he's not a (completely) shitty person, hence why he sounds kind of awkward while saying all this.]
... If that helps at all. I dunno if that made sense.
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