mineo.

[enfangs]

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[enfangs]

[he shrugs.]

I'm used to being around people like him.

[he's not going to admit to any of his deeper sentiments, because mineo would inevitably get incredibly sappy about it, which he cannot deal with right now especially with mineo offering to wipe blood from his face.]

Just... unlike Endorsi, I kept my trust more closely guarded, I guess.

[did he like mahito? he doesn't know. he probably would've sided with gojou over him, despite talking to mahito far more. but he wouldn't say he ever hated him, either.]

[sengokus]

[yea he's just still wiping blood from white's face because why the fuck has he been going around like that.]

..... I'm glad that things are - changing, at least. That you're not stuck with people like him anymore... because even having to share a room with him for the past while has been hell.

[and mineo truly couldn't stand it, but he bit his tongue for endorsi and also partially for gojou]

And... I'm also glad that you more careful with your trust. You should be. It's precious.

[enfangs]

[because for better or for worse, blood doesn't bother him...

but yeah, he absolutely could not handle mineo being nice to him right now—wait fuck, it's happening? he can't even look away, so he just stiffens a little.]

... Well, it's more like I don't trust anyone either, so it's not that praiseworthy.

[sengokus]

[ . . . he shakes his head at that]

I think it's fine.

[but once the blood's clear off white's face, mineo will just go and get a clean towel and offer it out to him]

I think... that I, of all people, don't really get to lecture people on trust today.

[enfangs]

[he takes it.]

Don't think you're meant to believe in people here in the first place, honestly.

[sengokus]

[ . . . . ]

Probably not.

[he'll own that. his trust's been - battered pretty badly int he last day, actually.]

.... I really almost believed in Ming Yi-san for a second there. And... I guess now, I still kind of do.

[it's. very difficult.]

But... I guess it's just 'cause I want to believe, even if it's kinda stupid.

[enfangs]

Yeah, it is. It just gets you betrayed in the end.

[...

he edges back a bit, as he'd like to be further out of mineo's physical proximity before showing even a little vulnerability.]

... Though being stupid once in a while might be necessary. Living while expecting nothing from people gets depressing after a while too.

[sengokus]

[ . . . he looks thoughtful about that before he tilts his head]

... do you expect anything from me, White?

[enfangs]

[he freezes.]

What? Where is this coming from?

[sengokus]

Because.... you said that you don't expect anything from other people.

Is that still true here?

[enfangs]

[sir, do not ask him this when he is stuck in your bathroom with you?]

... I feel like answering that is a lose/lose situation for me!

[sengokus]

[he can walk outside? the door is open and unlocked

but]

... it doesn't have to be winning or losing, does it? [he doesn't see it that way]

I just... wanna know what the truth is.

[enfangs]

[...

he looks away and doesn't say anything.]

[sengokus]

[ . . . . .

well.

he'll take that as a no.]

... I can try harder, then.

[enfangs]

[he closes his eyes for a moment, not wanting a glimpse of whatever face mineo is making, before he opens them, staring at the floor.]

... You idiot. You don't get it.

[granted, does white?]

[sengokus]

[ . . . . ]

It's hard for me to figure out what there is to get.

[he doesn't sound - mad? or impatient? like he just wants to understand, at least]

[enfangs]

[he tenses, before he ends up blurting out—]

If it was that straightforward, I would've just fucking said no!

[that the answer isn't simply without a doubt that, as it would be for so many, is what's killing him.]

[sengokus]

[ . . . okay. he looks surprised but then he'll just. try really hard? he's trying really hard. you can hear the gears in his brain doing their squeaky little turns]

... then walk me through it?

What is it? I don't think I'm gonna get it if you don't explain at least a little. Sorry.

[at the end of the day he is still an idiot]

[enfangs]

[the idea of walking mineo through it makes white want to die on the spot.]

Making me confess to you weeks ago wasn't enough?

[sengokus]

[oh. he looks confused?]

H-Huh? Are they related?

[enfangs]

Yeah, they both mean you really love this whole "talk out your feelings" thing!

[ugggh]

[sengokus]

[uGH]

It's only because I don't really get what you mean otherwise! I just don't wanna misunderstand something important?!

[enfangs]

[god]

... Let me ask you this—do you expect anything from me?

[sengokus]

[ . . . he tilts his head at that.]

In the way that you say it... Yeah. I do.

I believe in you, and I trust you.

[and that he can say without hesitation]

[enfangs]

[...

white was expecting this, given that mineo had said as much weeks ago and also this prediction was part of white's point to begin with and yet

somehow, he still wasn't? so he just

kind of stands there, not sure what to do with this confirmation.]