[because for better or for worse, blood doesn't bother him...
but yeah, he absolutely could not handle mineo being nice to him right now—wait fuck, it's happening? he can't even look away, so he just stiffens a little.]
... Well, it's more like I don't trust anyone either, so it's not that praiseworthy.
[ . . . okay. he looks surprised but then he'll just. try really hard? he's trying really hard. you can hear the gears in his brain doing their squeaky little turns]
... then walk me through it?
What is it? I don't think I'm gonna get it if you don't explain at least a little. Sorry.
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but yeah, he absolutely could not handle mineo being nice to him right now—wait fuck, it's happening? he can't even look away, so he just stiffens a little.]
... Well, it's more like I don't trust anyone either, so it's not that praiseworthy.
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I think it's fine.
[but once the blood's clear off white's face, mineo will just go and get a clean towel and offer it out to him]
I think... that I, of all people, don't really get to lecture people on trust today.
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Don't think you're meant to believe in people here in the first place, honestly.
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Probably not.
[he'll own that. his trust's been - battered pretty badly int he last day, actually.]
.... I really almost believed in Ming Yi-san for a second there. And... I guess now, I still kind of do.
[it's. very difficult.]
But... I guess it's just 'cause I want to believe, even if it's kinda stupid.
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[...
he edges back a bit, as he'd like to be further out of mineo's physical proximity before showing even a little vulnerability.]
... Though being stupid once in a while might be necessary. Living while expecting nothing from people gets depressing after a while too.
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... do you expect anything from me, White?
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What? Where is this coming from?
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Is that still true here?
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... I feel like answering that is a lose/lose situation for me!
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but]
... it doesn't have to be winning or losing, does it? [he doesn't see it that way]
I just... wanna know what the truth is.
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he looks away and doesn't say anything.]
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well.
he'll take that as a no.]
... I can try harder, then.
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... You idiot. You don't get it.
[granted, does white?]
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It's hard for me to figure out what there is to get.
[he doesn't sound - mad? or impatient? like he just wants to understand, at least]
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If it was that straightforward, I would've just fucking said no!
[that the answer isn't simply without a doubt that, as it would be for so many, is what's killing him.]
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... then walk me through it?
What is it? I don't think I'm gonna get it if you don't explain at least a little. Sorry.
[at the end of the day he is still an idiot]
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Making me confess to you weeks ago wasn't enough?
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H-Huh? Are they related?
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[ugggh]
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It's only because I don't really get what you mean otherwise! I just don't wanna misunderstand something important?!
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... Let me ask you this—do you expect anything from me?
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In the way that you say it... Yeah. I do.
I believe in you, and I trust you.
[and that he can say without hesitation]
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white was expecting this, given that mineo had said as much weeks ago and also this prediction was part of white's point to begin with and yet
somehow, he still wasn't? so he just
kind of stands there, not sure what to do with this confirmation.]
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mineo just gives him a smile at that - sincere and amused, even past all the tired - and then he'll just start headed back into the living room.]
Come on, let's at least go sit down.
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You really piss me off.
[but it's not exactly without fondness.]
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