oh. well, now white's back to feeling awkward as he remembers that yeah, mineo SURE SAID A LOT OF THINGS THAT WERE KILLING HIM INSIDE.]
Don't remind me!
[he might not have ever planned on telling mineo, let alone expected anything to come out of it, but there is still something horrendous about your crush cluelessly telling you for your own good to go after other people?? and then also naming specific people???]
[he covers his face with his free hand as his brain cooks over in embarrassment he already didn't look like he was in good shape today and now it's just getting worse]
[after which he covers his face with his hand as if this will hide how flustered he is and as if mineo?? doesn't already know????]
W-Whatever! I can separate my feelings from the job and stuff, but—do whatever you want! Shit, now you're rubbing off onto me!
[NOW HE CAN'T STOP HIS SENTENCE!! AND THAT WAS MAYBE INCREDIBLY UNCONVINCING although white is fairly confident that, like, it won't suddenly cause everything to spiral out of control, given that he's not going to decide that never mind, he doesn't respect mineo's non-answer after all! (if anything, the more likely outcome is mineo deciding that yeah, he's really not into this, gonna reject him on the spot now?)
but there is no way not to respond to this awkwardly aaaaaaaaah]
[he is just. going to plant his hands on white's shoulders and steer him out of the kitchen because this is literally the worst place to talk about possible kissing or not kissing
he's probably steering white to his room?? yea. endorsi and mahito are hopefully not home it's fine.]
[STOP!!!! it's fine mineo's just gonna head in, look around, and then he gets the loft!! it's nice. so that means they're headed up the stairs into mineo's room. gonna be honest it's surprisingly neat because he barely spends time there but also he didn't make the bed this morning.
[white is the last person to judge about someone not making their bed, given how messy he is, so. he sits on the edge of the couch with the confidence of someone who treats other people's rooms like they are, in fact, his now.]
[WHINING ABOUT IT ISN'T EXACTLY CONVINCING but.... he just frowns as he. also goes to sit on the couch after a second. he tries to clear his head enough to talk about this because it feels important!]
.... do you - want to?
[a beat]
Dating's still off the table - I think that's the case for anybody here who wants to win... and if I were dating somebody, I'd want to be way more serious and sincere about it. I - I'd just want to try harder, and you deserve better than any of these stupid non-answers that I'm stuck giving.
[he wants to acknowledge that, because it's true. white deserves better than this. mineo wishes he could give something better than this, but that's just now how things are set up to work.]
.... but if there's something you want from me, and it could still help you win - I want to give it.
[you deserve better, mineo says, and white is unfortunately reminded of why he has these dokis for this moron in the first place.]
Sap.
[he has to say it, if mostly to calm his nerves with the familiar.
he runs a hand through his hair, staring at some point on the floor instead of mineo.]
... I should be asking you that.
[if he wants to.
white's the one with a crush here, after all. seems to him that mineo has less to get out of this, and white doesn't want him to feel like he owes white something.]
he blinks in surprise at that before he reaches out, letting his hand follow the same path of white's, fingers carding through his hair just enough to get him to look up.
and mineo laughs faintly and briefly.]
.... I know you think I'm pretty generous -
But I wouldn't be offering if I didn't want to.
[he can't say with confidence what his feelings are - but he's pretty confident that kissing white wouldn't exactly be a chore.]
[HE JUST BLURTS THAT OUT which is to say he's getting flustered all over again at the gesture and words and. everything. did he ever really stop? no. but this is very sweet and it's killing him. hate this.]
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oh. well, now white's back to feeling awkward as he remembers that yeah, mineo SURE SAID A LOT OF THINGS THAT WERE KILLING HIM INSIDE.]
Don't remind me!
[he might not have ever planned on telling mineo, let alone expected anything to come out of it, but there is still something horrendous about your crush cluelessly telling you for your own good to go after other people?? and then also naming specific people???]
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[HE FEELS BAD ABOUT IT NOW BUT HIS TSUNDERE IS VERY RUSTY HOW WAS HE SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHITE WAS INTO HIM
idk everyone else realized but]
Would it - make it weirder if—
[
Hmmmmmmm.
HMMMMMMM HE'S TURNING MORE RED HOW DOES HE TAKE BACK THE FIRST PART OF A SENTENCE]
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HE'S NOT A MIND READER, HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT THE REST OF THAT SENTENCE WAS GONNA BE, MINEO]
[1/4??? i think]
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If.....
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Isn't that too much? Is it weird? I feel like it could be weird. Should I even ask? I don't want to make him feel awkward.
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If you still needed to kiss for indulgence or whatever!!
[oh my god]
But I know it could be a bad idea and just make things more complicated but I already started the sentence and now I can't stop!!
[1/3]
OH. OH. well, if the forehead kiss flustered white, this is DEFINITELY making him turn red aaaaaaaaaaaah]
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AND SHOVES MINEO AWAY]
Y-You— [and then he remembers they're in a public space and he does not want to attract attention] —idiot!
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W-Whatever! I can separate my feelings from the job and stuff, but—do whatever you want! Shit, now you're rubbing off onto me!
[NOW HE CAN'T STOP HIS SENTENCE!! AND THAT WAS MAYBE INCREDIBLY UNCONVINCING although white is fairly confident that, like, it won't suddenly cause everything to spiral out of control, given that he's not going to decide that never mind, he doesn't respect mineo's non-answer after all! (if anything, the more likely outcome is mineo deciding that yeah, he's really not into this, gonna reject him on the spot now?)
but there is no way not to respond to this awkwardly aaaaaaaaah]
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We're not having this conversation here.
[he is just. going to plant his hands on white's shoulders and steer him out of the kitchen because this is literally the worst place to talk about possible kissing or not kissing
he's probably steering white to his room?? yea. endorsi and mahito are hopefully not home it's fine.]
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but white will follow mineo out of the kitchen because. yeah. hm.]
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and there's probably snackies]
Ah, make yourself at home...
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and then realizes]
.... I don't know how to start this conversation again.
[THIS IS SO STUPID]
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[THIS IS TERRIBLE]
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[and now he looks like he wants to whine about it]
I mean - it's not like... other people don't just... kiss whoever they want to here...
[which he turns more red at? phew.]
I don't really want... your feelings to get in your way or anything...
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I can pretend they don't exist. Whatever.
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Um. That's fine. I don't think... anyone really has room to be jealous over much here, even though I know that's... hard....
[ . . . . . . . . . . wow he needs to figure out what to say]
But if... you do need... uh. [wow!!!] .... I wish I could ask more sweetly than this?! This is such a lame way to ask!
[mineo,]
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You're lame. I'd be concerned if you suddenly started acting smooth.
[is white deflecting from the fact that he's not exactly helping right now because he also doesn't know how to discuss this? maybe.]
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[WHINING ABOUT IT ISN'T EXACTLY CONVINCING but.... he just frowns as he. also goes to sit on the couch after a second. he tries to clear his head enough to talk about this because it feels important!]
.... do you - want to?
[a beat]
Dating's still off the table - I think that's the case for anybody here who wants to win... and if I were dating somebody, I'd want to be way more serious and sincere about it. I - I'd just want to try harder, and you deserve better than any of these stupid non-answers that I'm stuck giving.
[he wants to acknowledge that, because it's true. white deserves better than this. mineo wishes he could give something better than this, but that's just now how things are set up to work.]
.... but if there's something you want from me, and it could still help you win - I want to give it.
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Sap.
[he has to say it, if mostly to calm his nerves with the familiar.
he runs a hand through his hair, staring at some point on the floor instead of mineo.]
... I should be asking you that.
[if he wants to.
white's the one with a crush here, after all. seems to him that mineo has less to get out of this, and white doesn't want him to feel like he owes white something.]
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he blinks in surprise at that before he reaches out, letting his hand follow the same path of white's, fingers carding through his hair just enough to get him to look up.
and mineo laughs faintly and briefly.]
.... I know you think I'm pretty generous -
But I wouldn't be offering if I didn't want to.
[he can't say with confidence what his feelings are - but he's pretty confident that kissing white wouldn't exactly be a chore.]
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—I liked it better when you weren't smooth! Fuck.
[HE JUST BLURTS THAT OUT which is to say he's getting flustered all over again at the gesture and words and. everything. did he ever really stop? no. but this is very sweet and it's killing him. hate this.]
[1/2]
that actually surprises a laugh out of him - ]
Oh, yeah! I guess that was kinda smooth, huh?! Nice....!
[CONGRATULATING HIMSELF LIKE AN IDIOT]
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