I'm sure he meant well. But what an ugly thing to do, to keep encouraging you and praising you for your efforts to solve it, knowing where it would lead.
[surprise is the first thing to break through, with a hint of gratitude, followed by hurt—but there's still a flare of protectiveness, because none of anything that happened has changed how much white cares about mineo and that means he's instinctively defensive of any criticism not coming from himself.
but he shoves that down, as he shrugs.]
... Well, it's not like I don't get why. And he's made it no secret to me before that he hides stuff, so I should've seen it coming. Kind of did, I guess.
Hiding things is one matter. [Like. It makes sense to hide murder.] If he wanted to keep you out of it, to keep you from feeling as though you had to be dishonest to Medb and Endorsi, to keep you from bearing guilt. I suspect that's why.
And then there came the point in trial where he clearly decided he should be revealed, and rather than simply say so, he helped push you into revealing him.
I'm very cross with him about it. It wasn't fair, to put everyone through that for the sake of a guilty conscience.
[he appreciates it, even if he's still struggling with how he feels about it. considering his history, it's jarring to hear that someone feels he was ever wronged.]
[They're kind of similar, in this respect. They're both just abused kids with a lot of baggage trying to figure it out. White seems to understand that about her more than a lot of others do.]
It's no disappointment. I'm trying to be thorough. I did receive one, this time.
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[She's just going to come right out with it.]
I'm sure he meant well. But what an ugly thing to do, to keep encouraging you and praising you for your efforts to solve it, knowing where it would lead.
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but he shoves that down, as he shrugs.]
... Well, it's not like I don't get why. And he's made it no secret to me before that he hides stuff, so I should've seen it coming. Kind of did, I guess.
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And then there came the point in trial where he clearly decided he should be revealed, and rather than simply say so, he helped push you into revealing him.
I'm very cross with him about it. It wasn't fair, to put everyone through that for the sake of a guilty conscience.
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there's a mixture of conflicted feelings, before again, he locks those away.]
He's an idiot. Always has been.
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[Anyway. She'll drop it now. She just wanted to say as much.]
Have you received any messages from the dead, White?
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Nope. Sorry to disappoint.
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It's no disappointment. I'm trying to be thorough. I did receive one, this time.
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Wow. Uh, fucking ominous?
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Geez, tonight is just full of fucking bombshells. [he is so tired.] Is the "others" talking about the Avatars...?
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Perhaps. To think, for a moment, I thought I might have been able to feel relief.
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... This sure is gonna be a mess to navigate through, huh? You gonna be okay?
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[A spike of messy bad feelings follows, though.]
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well. there's a weird flickering sense of doubt, like white doesn't believe that but is also trying not to offend her by making that obvious.]