It's just faster than you dunking your head in water? You should probably still take a shower, but I wanted to talk to you first.
[so he stole white away. :/
but regardless he's just gonna. huff out a breath at that.]
... yeah. That. Not knowing which day he'd end up changing his mind, and I'd wake up to Endorsi dead. Or when I'd have to shoot him myself because he came after me, and then deal with Endorsi hating me for that.
[he means that he could do it himself because mineo doing it for him is very sweet and, like most kind gestures, white doesn't know what the fuck to do with that!
but he won't stop mineo at this point, since making a big deal out of it seems more awkward.]
... Yeah, I get that. I was kind of wondering if he'd ever try and do something. [a beat, as he smiles wryly.] Though the difference between people like you and people like me is that it was almost comforting.
[not because white wanted mahito to try and kill him, but...
at least when cruel people turn on you, you know why. you can blame it on them.
it's more terrifying for white to wonder when those who show him kindness will finally tire of it.]
[he - clearly doesn't get it. there's a furrow in his brow at that, irritated at the idea that there could be someone who could suddenly snap and take someone precious to him.
and yet he's expected to play nice with that person? honestly terrible.]
[he's not going to admit to any of his deeper sentiments, because mineo would inevitably get incredibly sappy about it, which he cannot deal with right now especially with mineo offering to wipe blood from his face.]
Just... unlike Endorsi, I kept my trust more closely guarded, I guess.
[did he like mahito? he doesn't know. he probably would've sided with gojou over him, despite talking to mahito far more. but he wouldn't say he ever hated him, either.]
[yea he's just still wiping blood from white's face because why the fuck has he been going around like that.]
..... I'm glad that things are - changing, at least. That you're not stuck with people like him anymore... because even having to share a room with him for the past while has been hell.
[and mineo truly couldn't stand it, but he bit his tongue for endorsi and also partially for gojou]
And... I'm also glad that you more careful with your trust. You should be. It's precious.
[because for better or for worse, blood doesn't bother him...
but yeah, he absolutely could not handle mineo being nice to him right now—wait fuck, it's happening? he can't even look away, so he just stiffens a little.]
... Well, it's more like I don't trust anyone either, so it's not that praiseworthy.
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Is there a point, to asking if she's okay?
[he.... hasn't seen her.
but he will guide white over to the bathroom, just so mineo can get a towel and dampen it in the sink]
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[unsurprisingly, white and endorsi dealt with emotions by not touching them and instead tried to beat each other up.]
She's not going to want your sympathy, though.
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he's just gonna beckon white over so mineo can take care of this fucking BLOOD on his HEAD]
.... I don't if I have sympathy.
[a beat]
I've kind of hated Mahito for a few weeks.
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... You don't have to.
[deal with. the blood.
but also—]
'Cause of the whole hating humans and feeding off their suffering, or whatever? Heard a little bit about that from Gojou before.
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[so he stole white away. :/
but regardless he's just gonna. huff out a breath at that.]
... yeah. That. Not knowing which day he'd end up changing his mind, and I'd wake up to Endorsi dead. Or when I'd have to shoot him myself because he came after me, and then deal with Endorsi hating me for that.
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but he won't stop mineo at this point, since making a big deal out of it seems more awkward.]
... Yeah, I get that. I was kind of wondering if he'd ever try and do something. [a beat, as he smiles wryly.] Though the difference between people like you and people like me is that it was almost comforting.
[not because white wanted mahito to try and kill him, but...
at least when cruel people turn on you, you know why. you can blame it on them.
it's more terrifying for white to wonder when those who show him kindness will finally tire of it.]
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[he - clearly doesn't get it. there's a furrow in his brow at that, irritated at the idea that there could be someone who could suddenly snap and take someone precious to him.
and yet he's expected to play nice with that person? honestly terrible.]
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I'm used to being around people like him.
[he's not going to admit to any of his deeper sentiments, because mineo would inevitably get incredibly sappy about it, which he cannot deal with right now especially with mineo offering to wipe blood from his face.]
Just... unlike Endorsi, I kept my trust more closely guarded, I guess.
[did he like mahito? he doesn't know. he probably would've sided with gojou over him, despite talking to mahito far more. but he wouldn't say he ever hated him, either.]
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..... I'm glad that things are - changing, at least. That you're not stuck with people like him anymore... because even having to share a room with him for the past while has been hell.
[and mineo truly couldn't stand it, but he bit his tongue for endorsi and also partially for gojou]
And... I'm also glad that you more careful with your trust. You should be. It's precious.
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but yeah, he absolutely could not handle mineo being nice to him right now—wait fuck, it's happening? he can't even look away, so he just stiffens a little.]
... Well, it's more like I don't trust anyone either, so it's not that praiseworthy.
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I think it's fine.
[but once the blood's clear off white's face, mineo will just go and get a clean towel and offer it out to him]
I think... that I, of all people, don't really get to lecture people on trust today.
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Don't think you're meant to believe in people here in the first place, honestly.
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Probably not.
[he'll own that. his trust's been - battered pretty badly int he last day, actually.]
.... I really almost believed in Ming Yi-san for a second there. And... I guess now, I still kind of do.
[it's. very difficult.]
But... I guess it's just 'cause I want to believe, even if it's kinda stupid.
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[...
he edges back a bit, as he'd like to be further out of mineo's physical proximity before showing even a little vulnerability.]
... Though being stupid once in a while might be necessary. Living while expecting nothing from people gets depressing after a while too.
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... do you expect anything from me, White?
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What? Where is this coming from?
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Is that still true here?
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... I feel like answering that is a lose/lose situation for me!
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but]
... it doesn't have to be winning or losing, does it? [he doesn't see it that way]
I just... wanna know what the truth is.
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he looks away and doesn't say anything.]
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well.
he'll take that as a no.]
... I can try harder, then.
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... You idiot. You don't get it.
[granted, does white?]
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It's hard for me to figure out what there is to get.
[he doesn't sound - mad? or impatient? like he just wants to understand, at least]
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If it was that straightforward, I would've just fucking said no!
[that the answer isn't simply without a doubt that, as it would be for so many, is what's killing him.]
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